COLUMBUS OHIO

Honestly, I think wisconsin is better. It's just as cold but madison feels more like home to me. That's why I chose to stay in madison. It's a little bigger here. More shops, more people, but generally it's really comparable to madison. Anyways the place wasnt the reason why I decided to come to ohio, the main reason was to chill out with close friends. And that's why it feels great to be here.

Im the only one awake right now. Everyone's sleeping... have skool or work commitments.

Been here for 2 days already. Had an awesome time here with my old crew so far and meeting new folks everyday. I have a feeling these 3 weeks will fly by so fast. Always happens to good times.

Talking to louis today made it kinda clear to me that I have been taking too many things for granted. Life has always been relatively easy for me, so much so that I never had to try. All this of course is relative in context. I'm not spoilt by most standards but I'm not trying hard either.

I used to be proud that I can do better than other ppl without trying hard. And when I fail, I just blame procrastination, assured that I'm not stupid, I just never tried hard enough.

I used to be cool with  procrastination, it's like my best friend.

I never try to get interviews or look for jobs because the ones that I can get, I think is too trivial and the ones that I want, I cant get. And even then it's not for sure since I tell myself I wont get it before I even try.

Got dis from daf :

"Procrastination is like masturbation, either way you're fucking yourself." 

Thought it was just tacky at first, but hell does it make sense when I look back at what coulda or shoulda or woulda been if i HADNT procrastinated.

I wont hold back in enjoying my ass off here but as soon as I get back to madison, it's time to kick it up a notch. 

So part of my new resolution,

fuck you procrastination

fuck you self-defeatism

and also,

fuck you Blizzard Inc.